Well the reason I'm up and writing this at 5.52am is the cravings!!! I'm dying for a fag (pardon the pun). Yesterday I made the grave error of telling my dear friend Nicola that I was going to stop smoking. Nicola is very health conscious and we've been friends for about a year - during which time she has bravely put up with me smoking in her presence (urgh). She always walks up and down the stairs to the 3rd floor whereas EVERYBODY else gets the lift. She made me give her my cigarette tin and all the lighters I could find for safekeeping (I think she'll probably burn them, or sell them on e-bay). Well, no, that's not strictly true, she didn't make me. I gave them to her voluntarily knowing full well that once I had done so there would be no way on earth I could ever get them back - short of maybe an imminent nuclear explosion, in which case I think Nicola may capitulate and decide I could have a fag in my last two minutes, before being blasted to hell.
That was at 11am yesterday and I haven't had a fag since. I went to Holland & Barrett and got some 'Craving Essence', Magnesium and Calcium, Antioxidant, NAC, and Vit B complex, all of which should help my recovery (the lady in the shop called it 'recovery' - made me feel a bit like Pete Docherty - but better looking).
I also ordered a ladies running watch which should arrive today as I've paid the extra for next day delivery....I can afford to do that now I've stopped smoking!!!.
I have some tobacco products in the house and I think I should throw them away. I've always got some in because there's nothing worse than not having anything to smoke. But I'm not strong enough to resist the temptation and if I'm stopping, I'm stopping...right? So I'm not ever going to need tobacco products again, am I?
Oh yes - I also bought some twinings Green Tea with Cranberries (I'll be bloody driving a 1965 camper van next and not brushing my hair!) which tastes like crap, and we're doing a full nicotene, caffeine detox together. I've got a headache...but I wasn't as tired last night as I usually am.
I went to sleep listening to hypnotherapy CD no 2 which is about non-smoking.
If I manage this I will of course become one of those dreadful ex-smokers who turns their nose up at the mere sight of someone having a fag. And there will be no smoking in my home under any circumstances whatsoever!!!!